OnlineBibleTalk

Well since my last entry I was referred to checkout www.sheilajministies.com and I have done so. Her sermon that I could see was amazing though her sermon was for a woman. I emailed her my situation, how I'm feeling, a copy of my previous blog, and explained I didn't understand why I was referred to her. I have done some praying and thinking about my situation as well as my life and relationship with God. Today I told my wife that I will do my best to no longer worry about the situation or anything else. I said I would pray about it and leave things alone. I have also made a self promise to be in church every Sunday no matter how I get there to try and recover the faith I lost or never had. It's the perfect time to try more to change my life around as well as a perfect time for my family to join and put their life towards the direction of God. Whether or not I stick to it I'm not sure, but I hope to be able to. I'm still not nearly ready, but I'm working on it whatever that may be. If our situation don't change my wife, our two kids, and myself will be without transportation. I don't know how soon I will be completely devoted to church and God, but I am going to try. As far as my personal demons that I battle in thought is another story. I have evil thoughts in my mind as well as good thoughts, but I try to battle well and sometimes succeed in not letting the evil in me completely take over. For God is my sheppard and I shall not want. As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I fear no evil. For some reason that snipplet of a passage just came to mind. Many things happen for many reasons and the thing is I understand no reason what so ever. I'm going into building or rebuilding faith as well as a relationship with God.